yeah, yeah, yeah

if at first you dont succeed....sometimes its best to give up. life is like a rollercoaster, or a series of rollercoasters, or many rollercoasters all at one time, or just throwing up thinking about the rollercoasters. sometimes you climb up and up and up and up and up only to find out the track actually stopped just past the top so now its a really hard fall straight down to the ground, plummeting like dead weight towards the cement. other times its smooth as can be - like flying. i woke up this morning to maddy climbing into my bed to snuggle with me. we stared at each other, nose to nose, for a while then she said the one thing that i needed to hear more than anything else in the whole world. "i feel special mommy." now i'm flying.